END OF THE FALL WELCOME THE COLD

Days draw colder and shorter.  Trees shed their pretty colors, and begin their docile state.  Evergreens grow more prominent against the white ground.  People stay indoors and bundle up warmly wishing for the suns sweet warmth on their faces once more.  Some, however, welcome the cold as a friend.  Hiking into mountains to ride down on boards or skis.  To some, this is fun.  Others, complete craziness.  Some places never know the meaning of cold weather or snow.  Some places only  know the low seventies.  Those I consider lucky.  People gather in groups sipping hot drinks in attempts to stay warm.  The controversy over when it's okay for Christmas to show all it's colors, or if they are to stay away for another month or so.  The end of fall brings happiness and sadness.  The cold brings pink cheeks and noses.  Maybe some blue, if you aren't warm enough.  The cold brings closeness of families not seen in some time.  So welcome the cold.  The flu's not the only thing that comes from it's frosty embrace.

COUNTRY MUSIC

I don't know how many people know this...but I love country music.  Reason one, because I grew up on it.  (Thanks to Dad's country phase.)  Reason two, it's very entertaining to listen to.  ("Red Solo Cup")  Plus they sing about simple things.  Breaking up, falling in love, getting drunk.  Somethings so simple and yet artists like Tim McGraw, Brad Paisley, and, of course, Taylor Swift.  They have gifts.  Unlike pop, they don't go techno or auto tune.  They stick to their own voices and their own voices.  It's amazing.  Sorry those who are anti-country, but you are truly missing out.  Country is amazing in and of itself.  I'm a country girl through and through!

ROOMMATES

Well, I told you I'd stay up and I will.  Not too bad right?  Anyway, my last post was so off.  Not even kidding, that was just insecure babble from me.  This past week could not have been more amazing.  My roommates Charly, Emily, Cali, Racheal and Kristine could not be better I could not have asked for better roommates.  We've been on the town, around the school, and yes, having movie nights in our dorm.  Why?  Because we are that amazing.  I fetching love every single one of them.  I can't wait to get to know each of them more over the next year.  The end of it will be a sad one because we will all go different ways.  As for now, we will continue our party.  Freshman year will be a good one.  I can feel it already, all thanks to all my fantastic roommates.

COLLEGE LIFE

Wow, I fail horribly at keeping this up.  Sorry if anyone has been missing me! (Crickets chirping in the background.)  Anyway, well I'm growing up.  As you can see in the title and probably know already I have moved out of my home and am now living in a dorm on the Utah State University campus.  I'm living with 6 other girls and to top it off we all share one small bathroom.  If it weren't for all the storage space and all of us seeming normal, things would not be going well.  My room has been decorated and organized and not that messy yet, but it is only the second day.  I've spent most of the day, today, in the dorm.  I think I'll go wander around, but I doubt there's anyone around.  Everyone's probably gone home or to church or doing their own things.  That's what all my roommates have done.  All of them, it seems, came up with their best friends....and me with no one.  We all get along great, but I can never find anything to say.  Of course I don't want to be that roommate who's a loner and everything, but I also don't want to be the annoying roommate always bugging everyone.  I can't seem to find that middle spot.  What I have been doing is saying hi, asked a few questions and try to get involved in conversations.  I don't barge in or anything, but for the most part I have been kinda keeping to myself.  Credit to myself I have been trying.  Our kitchen is nice and organized, we have so much in there I'm being sent home with some of my stuff because there is just so much! We all managed to double everything we needed.  At least we aren't without much.  Fans are needed because it has been so hot the past couple days.  Logan? Hot? I know I was confused too, but it's better than freezing.  All in all I can see this all leading up to a pretty good year.  Still feels weird to not be sleeping in my own bed and everything, but hopefully I'll get a better nights sleep tonight.  More coming soon!  Welcome to College Life!

MAKING A COMEBACK

In my life I've been good about keeping things going.  I check Facebook constantly, email nearly hourly and phone every minute.  Kind of sad right?  One thing I have kind of failed at is keeping this blog updated.  I don't know what it is, but I really need to do better.  That is one thing I know for sure.  So, lets see if I'm still good at this....
School's wrapping up; just physically there as I day dream about summer. Senioritis is kicking in so bad, that is should be a real disease.  There should be better treatment then the "wait till graduation" method.  It doesn't work.  Many of my fellow seniors can attest to this.  Though, in someways I don't want school to end.  I won't see all of my friends regularly, and most of my guy friends will be leaving on their missions to far off lands....or states.  I'll be ending the High School chapter of my life, and moving on to the "real world."  In someways I'm excited, but I'm also just so nervous.  Growing up is just seeming so unreal.  Also, I really don't feel like an adult.  I know I should and stuff, but whatever it is that'll supposedly happen to me hasn't happened yet.  So when that happens you will be informed, but until then that's the end of today's post.

WRITINGS RELEASE

Oh the joys of writing.  How a whole new world can live inside your head just waiting to come out and have its story be told.  It can be anything you want it to be.  Tragic, romantic, humorous, and even educational can all live in your head.  People wanting to be known are in your head, ready to get out and have a life.  The sweet feeling of escape as you begin to write the story of the world in your head.  How so simply or complicated your story is, it doesn't matter.  It's the world you created.  Every person, every city, everything is yours.  Make it what you want.  No one tell you what to do and no one to tell you how good or bad it is.  Just you and your thoughts on paper becoming a story and becoming real.  Writing can be personal and help you vent.  It can be something made up completely.  The release of writing can be better than even the best therapy.  

SWEET STRESS RELIEF

Nothing says stress relief better than playing some of the best Disney songs on the piano.  I kid you not, it's like a freaking therapy session.  Sometimes, however, I get too busy and can't make it to my musical therapist so what's the next best thing you might ask?  That would be blasting my music so loud in my headphones so that I can block everything else out.  When that doesn't work there is always television or internet right.  Sadly virtual reality is almost always better than facing everything that life has to give you out there in the real world.

SUMMERS END

Ah summer; a time of warmth, relaxation, and peace.  Sadly, however, even this blissful time must come to an end.  We remember with fondness the way the sun would feel on our face, and how we stayed out without worrying about homework and things of that nature.  Still good things come from the summers end.  After all we see the beautiful trees change their colors to shades of red, brown and yellows.  We see our friends on a more regular basis and meet new friends as the year moves on.  Fall brings cool weather and beautiful scenery.  Though nothing can compare to a warm summer evening. 

COLLEGE LIFE PREVIEW

Man, I can't believe that I've got one more year of high school left.  My senior year starts in 8 days!  It's crazy to imagine.  I do have my college plans in order now.  I'm planing on mainly Utah State University, but since it's not a good idea to put all your eggs in one basket my back ups are Snow College and Utah Valley University.  I took a tour of USU a few weeks ago, and I fell head over heels for that place!  They are so student oriented!  Which is really great for me.  Plus the shuttle system around campus and free around town bus rides I'll be savin on gas and won't have to dress for the ice age just to walk around campus.  Well, maybe I'll still need to dress for the ice age since it gets really cold up there.  Just weird to think this will be the last year of living under my parents roof.  Crazy life right?

UP AND UP

Well things have been going really well for me recently.  I am going to prom with a friend of mine named Seth Mellott if any of you know him.  Bought my dress a few weeks ago and it is so pretty.  You wouldn't think so if I just described it, and since I don't know how to put pictures on here I will say its straight down black and white and straight down with a tie in the back.  I would have gotten a bright green I fell in love with, but sadly it was barely too small and I could barely move in it.  But it's okay because I'm gonna get bright green accessories and Seth will have a bright green tie; so I will still have my share of green.  Last we talked we were gonna do laser tag for our day date.  Still not a hundred percent, but I sure hope so!  Laser tag is so fun!  Choir tour was amazing! We went to Disneyland, and I got a pretty good tan.  Plus I went on the Ferris Wheel, which is a big deal for someone who doesn't like heights like me!  I also went on Indiana Jones, Pirates of the Carribean, Little Mermaid, Monsters Inc., Thunder Mountain Railroad, Space Mountain, Finding Nemo, Whinnie the Pooh, Silly Symphony Swings, the Zepolines, Haunted Mansion, Teacups, Gadgets Go Coaster, Tritans Merry Go Round, Toy Story Mania, and It's a Small World.  I had so much fun!  The five other girls I roomed with were so awesome! Totally respectful, honest, and so fun! People on my bus, yes even the adults and driver were super awesome!   They were funny, cool, and just awesome really!  I'm using the word awesome allot aren't I? Lets see, what's another word for awesome?  Oh, fantastic, wonderful, and amazing.  There we go.  Anyway, for the festival up there, Chamber Choir got a perfect score, Advanced Women's took first in our division, and Acapella got third out of nine spots with the lowest being excellent which is still really good.  American Fork's most advanced Chamber Choir beat us by half a point and Orem's choir beat them by another half a point.  So as you can see it was pretty close competition.  This has never happened before the announcer said.  So we were pretty dang awesome this year!  Go Utah choir!
Another great thing that has happened, my parents are in debate about getting me my own car.  We talked about it yesterday, I'll need another job to help pay for everything, but that shouldn't be a big problem.  I hope anyway, so if anyone knows anyplace hiring lemme know! So, yeah that's about where things are.  My job at the Cinemark is going well, and yeah.  I'll have better stories next time.  So for the long wait in between posts.

MONSTERS

"Just give up.  It's not worth all the fighting.  Just give in and everything will be easier."  A voice in my head says to me.  I've been fighting for what seems like forever.  In reality it's only been about a month and a half.  My energy is running low.  It's been getting stronger, and I've done nothing but get weaker.  How could that be?  I've been doing everything I was supposed to.  Executing the right moves and using the right tactics, but nothing was working.  Sometimes it seemed to only make things worse.  It wasn't fair.  I'm trying so hard; nothing seems to be working.
"I can't give up.  I wont give up."  I say back hoping my voice isn't as weak as it sounded to me.
"You are pathetic.  You think you can win with all of these stupid and moronic mistakes you have made?  You're even more foolish than I thought!"  He chuckles at my misery.  How one being be so cruel and heartless?  I can't let him get in my head.  I have to keep him out!
You can't keep out what's already here you silly girl.  Did you think you could ever beat me?  You are sadly mistaken.  I know everything now.  Everything is becoming so clear.  Oh you poor girl so full of false hope. 
He was in my head.  I have to get him out.  I don't know how but I have to.
This monster can't stay here forever.  Eventually he will have to get out.  I have to kill this monster.  No matter how hard it may be.  He must be gone if I ever want this nightmare to end.

SONGS IN REAL LIFE

Now I want you all to look at this song.  If you have heard it, awesome, if not pay close attention to the words.  I have not been able to stop listening to it for the longest time! I'm so in love with it.  Not just because it's from Taylor Swift, or because its the theme for the "Hunger Games" movie coming out.  These words don't just explain what happens in the movie but also have a real world connections.  Part of these lyrics and can seriously to what not only is going on out there in the world, but also some parts of my life.  This song speaks nothing but the truth.  I seriously recommending reading these lyrics before listening to the song.  You'll, in my opinion, get allot more out of it than getting caught up in her voice.  
I remember tears streaming down your face
When I said, I'll never let you go
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said, Don't leave me here alone
But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

Don't you dare look out your window darling
Everything's on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold onto this lullaby
Even when the music's gone
Gone

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

Just close your eyes
You'll be alright
Come morning light,
You and I'll be safe and sound...   

ALONE

You know how you make all these fun plans with your friends and you're so excited and nothing goes right when the time comes.  Well ladies and gents, that was this night.  I had plans with a friend to go to a basketball game.  This person told me she was definatly going, but when I text them when it's time to meet they are having second thoughts.  Ouch.  Then I had plans to go to the stomp with my boyfriend.  Well circumstances just working against me made it impossible for him to come.  Now I'm certain what happened there isn't towards me, but in the other case I'm not so sure.  Maybe I had it coming, I don't know.  All I do know is, due to the fact I'm a very easy crier, I sat on the bleachers watching people dance around with thier friends and having a ball.  Now, maybe I am being overly dramatic, maybe I'm just being the average over emotional teenage girl, but either way, today hurt.  I'm sure it wasn't on purpose, but it sucked none the less.  So thanks karma or whatever you are for letting me have a perfectly, lonely friday night. 

YOUNG LOVE

How is love defined?  Well the true definition of love, to me, is something that cannot be put into words or feelings too strong for words alone.  Brad helps me understand those feelings. 
Hanging out is so much fun!  Namely when we watch How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days.  You know which part I'm talking about.  I love how he makes me feel so happy and amazing.  Love you Brad!!!!
Oh how there is no definition for young love.

LOOKING TO THE FUTURE

Today was SEOP's for Juniors this week and mine was this morning.  After a few set backs I finally met up with my councillor to discuss my last year of high school.  Everything went well, I did get a sucker.  Some sad news though, need another P.E credit and after that nothing else but a relativley easy senior years.  Thank gosh for online school.  I'm thinking of also doing Financial Literature online to avoid a semester of boredum.  That really sounds tempting, I think I will.  See this is why I love writing!  I figure out so much stuff from doing it!
Anyway, I'm absolutley petrified of the future.  Within the next two years, I will be going off to college.  I'll be leaving the place I have lived my whole life.  Sure maybe soon it'll be more exciting the closer it gets, as of now it's frightening. 
I wish I could go back to the days of throwing caution to the wind.  Racing bikes up and down the street.  Ah the good old days.  Not worrying about anything, but what we were going to eat for dinner. 

TRIALS

Wow, it has been a while.  Sorry, school's just been keeping me so busy I haven't really had the time to update anything.  I promise I'll start getting more on top of it. 
Anyway, these past few weeks have just been hard.  Loads of stuff I have been having to deal with half of it school, the other half work.  So let's see where to begin....
Lets just start off with school.  Well I took Precalculas thinking, it won't be too bad.  Just a little harder than Algebra 2 right?  Wrong big time! My teacher did warn us at the begining of the year you needed a B average to pass Precal; I got a C average.  First term wasn't too bad, I managed a C.  Second term, on the other hand, was a D-.  Want to know how I managed to borderline pass?  I'll tell you.  The last test of the term, I was super confident I can totally pass!  I had an F from the previous test I compleatly failed.  This test all I needed was a 50% to pass.  The test finished and I was feeling less than confident.  I knew I could at least get a D on it.  On Sunday my teacher posted the scores.  I sacanned down so very eagerly to find my score.  There it was, 37%.  My heart sank, I had failed Precal.  I was crushed.  I logged off waiting for my mom to see it.  My brother is the first person I saw.  I told him to come over so I could show him and ask him what Mom would do to me when she found out.  I logged back in and there it was a D-!  It went up!  I was so happy!  I passed, just barely, but still passed Precalculas!
So with one tragedy down time for the other one to begin.  Last Friday I was on my way to work at JCW's.  I walk in to the back room where our assignments are for the day.  I look the list over a couple times and notice my name's not there.  So I go find my boss to see if it was just a mistake or if I wasn't supposed to come in today.  I find him and he says,"Go out and wait for me I need to talk to you."  So I went to sit in one of the booths.  My heart was racing, all I could think about was one word.  Fired.  I sat and waited patiently trying not to let the fear show on my face.  My boss comes out and sits down. 
"Now as you know we have been having allot of employees asking for more hours when there aren't any to give.  Chris and Clay have told me that we need to lay people off.  Taylor, we are going to have to let you go."  My heart sank, me being an easy crier when it came to bad news like this couldn't help but shed a little tear.  He went on to say how I was improving and how I needed to come in and collect one more check on the 26th.  He then asked if I had any questions.  Through the tears I tried to manage a smile and said, " Know anywhere that't hiring?"  He smiled and suggested Subway and other than that he didn't know.  I left with tears overflowing in my eyes. 
So if you know anywhere that is hiring in the Pleasant Grove, Lindon, and or American Fork area, please let me know as soon as possible.  Thanks. 
Everyone's got trials, but not everyone can overcome them.

MY SCHOOL DAY

So, wow, it has been a while.  I have to start getting into a habit of updating this once a week or something like that.  Wow, sides it'll help me with my writing which I love to do as I'm sure all of you know. 
Anyway, on to my story for today.  Well my weeks are kinda crazy.  Average life of a teenager I guess. 
It starts off with waking up at 6 in the morning.  Now for some of you it may not be that bad, but for me a total night owl, it is really horrible.  Then after draggin myself out of my nice, wonderful, comfortable bed I am off to school.  At school I go through three classes lunch and then another class.  Classes are okay depending on what they are and who's in there with me, but most of the time I just try to take good notes and get good grades.  So hopefully that pays off.  Then lunch is probably one of the best times of the day.  My friends and I can agree that we make some great memories and laughs at lunch.  The last class of the day is more or less the hardest part of the day.  Mainly due to the fact lunch just ended and you have gone through all your classes and have mounds of homework already.  When it finally ends you grab your keys and lazily drive home hoping for a nap or at least.  Then you do your homework.  Then about two hours go by and you wonder where did the time go?  Gotta love an average school day, right?

SACRIFCE

Giving up something for something else is not easy.  Choosing between one and another, difficult.  Some say it'll be worth it in the end.  I am sure it ill be, who knows maybe you ill go back to it sooner then you think.  Either way giving up something is not easy.  No matter how good you are at it. However, things always seem to make things right in the end.  Sorry it's so short, I'm suffering from writers block.  

DRAWING A BLANK

Don't you hate it when you sit and look at a blank screen for hours?  That is me, right now.  I have to write this paper for English honors and my assignment was just to brainstorm.  What happens when you get many ideas?  Or you can't decide on one idea?  Or even when you really wanna do one idea, but nothing comes together?  Ugh, sometimes writing is difficult.  Namely when having writers block.  It's the worst! So I am suffering from that right now.  I'm surprised I got this much written down.  This is a short one too.  Man, I hate drawing a blank!

VACATION DAY FIVE!!!

Today was Nassau.  Firstly we got off the boat and had to go through the market to get into the city.  After walking a good mile from the boat.  Man, do those hair braiders and taxi drivers come after you.  I don't know how many came up and asked to give rides and braid within the first few minutes we entered the actual city.  Another not so amazing thing, none of the shops open tell ten!  Even though there were two or more ships and people wanting to spend everything they owned they watited tell after ten at a certain store.  I did get my friends some nice suveniors from here.  Brayden a nice deck of face cards and Morgan a lovely and very purple necklace.  I also got myself some sun glasses.  We eventualy left earlier then normally since Mom was on the brink of exploding from heat and frustration. I don't blame here at all.
We got back to the ship and just lounged around.  The other half of the island we saw from the ship and it was fairly nice.  It looked where the celebraties kept their beach houses.  Got a few pictures of the Atlantis Resort as well.  That night we stopped off at the gift shop on the ship, which was packed and got us all something.  I got my back which is supposed to change color in the sun.  I hope it does, anyway.  Then I went up to my club to get the numbers of those people I would probably never see or talk to again.  Ended up staying there longer then I ment to, but got to bed. 
The next day was nothing but lines and planes from Ft. Lauterdale to Ft. Worth then Salt Lake, so I wont bore you with all that.  So it was a nice trip.  Only downer is making up all the work I missed.  Horray!  Well now you're all caught up.  Hope you're not too jealous.