MAKING A COMEBACK

In my life I've been good about keeping things going.  I check Facebook constantly, email nearly hourly and phone every minute.  Kind of sad right?  One thing I have kind of failed at is keeping this blog updated.  I don't know what it is, but I really need to do better.  That is one thing I know for sure.  So, lets see if I'm still good at this....
School's wrapping up; just physically there as I day dream about summer. Senioritis is kicking in so bad, that is should be a real disease.  There should be better treatment then the "wait till graduation" method.  It doesn't work.  Many of my fellow seniors can attest to this.  Though, in someways I don't want school to end.  I won't see all of my friends regularly, and most of my guy friends will be leaving on their missions to far off lands....or states.  I'll be ending the High School chapter of my life, and moving on to the "real world."  In someways I'm excited, but I'm also just so nervous.  Growing up is just seeming so unreal.  Also, I really don't feel like an adult.  I know I should and stuff, but whatever it is that'll supposedly happen to me hasn't happened yet.  So when that happens you will be informed, but until then that's the end of today's post.

WRITINGS RELEASE

Oh the joys of writing.  How a whole new world can live inside your head just waiting to come out and have its story be told.  It can be anything you want it to be.  Tragic, romantic, humorous, and even educational can all live in your head.  People wanting to be known are in your head, ready to get out and have a life.  The sweet feeling of escape as you begin to write the story of the world in your head.  How so simply or complicated your story is, it doesn't matter.  It's the world you created.  Every person, every city, everything is yours.  Make it what you want.  No one tell you what to do and no one to tell you how good or bad it is.  Just you and your thoughts on paper becoming a story and becoming real.  Writing can be personal and help you vent.  It can be something made up completely.  The release of writing can be better than even the best therapy.  

SWEET STRESS RELIEF

Nothing says stress relief better than playing some of the best Disney songs on the piano.  I kid you not, it's like a freaking therapy session.  Sometimes, however, I get too busy and can't make it to my musical therapist so what's the next best thing you might ask?  That would be blasting my music so loud in my headphones so that I can block everything else out.  When that doesn't work there is always television or internet right.  Sadly virtual reality is almost always better than facing everything that life has to give you out there in the real world.

SUMMERS END

Ah summer; a time of warmth, relaxation, and peace.  Sadly, however, even this blissful time must come to an end.  We remember with fondness the way the sun would feel on our face, and how we stayed out without worrying about homework and things of that nature.  Still good things come from the summers end.  After all we see the beautiful trees change their colors to shades of red, brown and yellows.  We see our friends on a more regular basis and meet new friends as the year moves on.  Fall brings cool weather and beautiful scenery.  Though nothing can compare to a warm summer evening. 

COLLEGE LIFE PREVIEW

Man, I can't believe that I've got one more year of high school left.  My senior year starts in 8 days!  It's crazy to imagine.  I do have my college plans in order now.  I'm planing on mainly Utah State University, but since it's not a good idea to put all your eggs in one basket my back ups are Snow College and Utah Valley University.  I took a tour of USU a few weeks ago, and I fell head over heels for that place!  They are so student oriented!  Which is really great for me.  Plus the shuttle system around campus and free around town bus rides I'll be savin on gas and won't have to dress for the ice age just to walk around campus.  Well, maybe I'll still need to dress for the ice age since it gets really cold up there.  Just weird to think this will be the last year of living under my parents roof.  Crazy life right?

UP AND UP

Well things have been going really well for me recently.  I am going to prom with a friend of mine named Seth Mellott if any of you know him.  Bought my dress a few weeks ago and it is so pretty.  You wouldn't think so if I just described it, and since I don't know how to put pictures on here I will say its straight down black and white and straight down with a tie in the back.  I would have gotten a bright green I fell in love with, but sadly it was barely too small and I could barely move in it.  But it's okay because I'm gonna get bright green accessories and Seth will have a bright green tie; so I will still have my share of green.  Last we talked we were gonna do laser tag for our day date.  Still not a hundred percent, but I sure hope so!  Laser tag is so fun!  Choir tour was amazing! We went to Disneyland, and I got a pretty good tan.  Plus I went on the Ferris Wheel, which is a big deal for someone who doesn't like heights like me!  I also went on Indiana Jones, Pirates of the Carribean, Little Mermaid, Monsters Inc., Thunder Mountain Railroad, Space Mountain, Finding Nemo, Whinnie the Pooh, Silly Symphony Swings, the Zepolines, Haunted Mansion, Teacups, Gadgets Go Coaster, Tritans Merry Go Round, Toy Story Mania, and It's a Small World.  I had so much fun!  The five other girls I roomed with were so awesome! Totally respectful, honest, and so fun! People on my bus, yes even the adults and driver were super awesome!   They were funny, cool, and just awesome really!  I'm using the word awesome allot aren't I? Lets see, what's another word for awesome?  Oh, fantastic, wonderful, and amazing.  There we go.  Anyway, for the festival up there, Chamber Choir got a perfect score, Advanced Women's took first in our division, and Acapella got third out of nine spots with the lowest being excellent which is still really good.  American Fork's most advanced Chamber Choir beat us by half a point and Orem's choir beat them by another half a point.  So as you can see it was pretty close competition.  This has never happened before the announcer said.  So we were pretty dang awesome this year!  Go Utah choir!
Another great thing that has happened, my parents are in debate about getting me my own car.  We talked about it yesterday, I'll need another job to help pay for everything, but that shouldn't be a big problem.  I hope anyway, so if anyone knows anyplace hiring lemme know! So, yeah that's about where things are.  My job at the Cinemark is going well, and yeah.  I'll have better stories next time.  So for the long wait in between posts.

MONSTERS

"Just give up.  It's not worth all the fighting.  Just give in and everything will be easier."  A voice in my head says to me.  I've been fighting for what seems like forever.  In reality it's only been about a month and a half.  My energy is running low.  It's been getting stronger, and I've done nothing but get weaker.  How could that be?  I've been doing everything I was supposed to.  Executing the right moves and using the right tactics, but nothing was working.  Sometimes it seemed to only make things worse.  It wasn't fair.  I'm trying so hard; nothing seems to be working.
"I can't give up.  I wont give up."  I say back hoping my voice isn't as weak as it sounded to me.
"You are pathetic.  You think you can win with all of these stupid and moronic mistakes you have made?  You're even more foolish than I thought!"  He chuckles at my misery.  How one being be so cruel and heartless?  I can't let him get in my head.  I have to keep him out!
You can't keep out what's already here you silly girl.  Did you think you could ever beat me?  You are sadly mistaken.  I know everything now.  Everything is becoming so clear.  Oh you poor girl so full of false hope. 
He was in my head.  I have to get him out.  I don't know how but I have to.
This monster can't stay here forever.  Eventually he will have to get out.  I have to kill this monster.  No matter how hard it may be.  He must be gone if I ever want this nightmare to end.