Thursday, March 1, 2012

MONSTERS

"Just give up.  It's not worth all the fighting.  Just give in and everything will be easier."  A voice in my head says to me.  I've been fighting for what seems like forever.  In reality it's only been about a month and a half.  My energy is running low.  It's been getting stronger, and I've done nothing but get weaker.  How could that be?  I've been doing everything I was supposed to.  Executing the right moves and using the right tactics, but nothing was working.  Sometimes it seemed to only make things worse.  It wasn't fair.  I'm trying so hard; nothing seems to be working.
"I can't give up.  I wont give up."  I say back hoping my voice isn't as weak as it sounded to me.
"You are pathetic.  You think you can win with all of these stupid and moronic mistakes you have made?  You're even more foolish than I thought!"  He chuckles at my misery.  How one being be so cruel and heartless?  I can't let him get in my head.  I have to keep him out!
You can't keep out what's already here you silly girl.  Did you think you could ever beat me?  You are sadly mistaken.  I know everything now.  Everything is becoming so clear.  Oh you poor girl so full of false hope. 
He was in my head.  I have to get him out.  I don't know how but I have to.
This monster can't stay here forever.  Eventually he will have to get out.  I have to kill this monster.  No matter how hard it may be.  He must be gone if I ever want this nightmare to end.