ALONE

You know how you make all these fun plans with your friends and you're so excited and nothing goes right when the time comes.  Well ladies and gents, that was this night.  I had plans with a friend to go to a basketball game.  This person told me she was definatly going, but when I text them when it's time to meet they are having second thoughts.  Ouch.  Then I had plans to go to the stomp with my boyfriend.  Well circumstances just working against me made it impossible for him to come.  Now I'm certain what happened there isn't towards me, but in the other case I'm not so sure.  Maybe I had it coming, I don't know.  All I do know is, due to the fact I'm a very easy crier, I sat on the bleachers watching people dance around with thier friends and having a ball.  Now, maybe I am being overly dramatic, maybe I'm just being the average over emotional teenage girl, but either way, today hurt.  I'm sure it wasn't on purpose, but it sucked none the less.  So thanks karma or whatever you are for letting me have a perfectly, lonely friday night. 

YOUNG LOVE

How is love defined?  Well the true definition of love, to me, is something that cannot be put into words or feelings too strong for words alone.  Brad helps me understand those feelings. 
Hanging out is so much fun!  Namely when we watch How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days.  You know which part I'm talking about.  I love how he makes me feel so happy and amazing.  Love you Brad!!!!
Oh how there is no definition for young love.

LOOKING TO THE FUTURE

Today was SEOP's for Juniors this week and mine was this morning.  After a few set backs I finally met up with my councillor to discuss my last year of high school.  Everything went well, I did get a sucker.  Some sad news though, need another P.E credit and after that nothing else but a relativley easy senior years.  Thank gosh for online school.  I'm thinking of also doing Financial Literature online to avoid a semester of boredum.  That really sounds tempting, I think I will.  See this is why I love writing!  I figure out so much stuff from doing it!
Anyway, I'm absolutley petrified of the future.  Within the next two years, I will be going off to college.  I'll be leaving the place I have lived my whole life.  Sure maybe soon it'll be more exciting the closer it gets, as of now it's frightening. 
I wish I could go back to the days of throwing caution to the wind.  Racing bikes up and down the street.  Ah the good old days.  Not worrying about anything, but what we were going to eat for dinner. 

TRIALS

Wow, it has been a while.  Sorry, school's just been keeping me so busy I haven't really had the time to update anything.  I promise I'll start getting more on top of it. 
Anyway, these past few weeks have just been hard.  Loads of stuff I have been having to deal with half of it school, the other half work.  So let's see where to begin....
Lets just start off with school.  Well I took Precalculas thinking, it won't be too bad.  Just a little harder than Algebra 2 right?  Wrong big time! My teacher did warn us at the begining of the year you needed a B average to pass Precal; I got a C average.  First term wasn't too bad, I managed a C.  Second term, on the other hand, was a D-.  Want to know how I managed to borderline pass?  I'll tell you.  The last test of the term, I was super confident I can totally pass!  I had an F from the previous test I compleatly failed.  This test all I needed was a 50% to pass.  The test finished and I was feeling less than confident.  I knew I could at least get a D on it.  On Sunday my teacher posted the scores.  I sacanned down so very eagerly to find my score.  There it was, 37%.  My heart sank, I had failed Precal.  I was crushed.  I logged off waiting for my mom to see it.  My brother is the first person I saw.  I told him to come over so I could show him and ask him what Mom would do to me when she found out.  I logged back in and there it was a D-!  It went up!  I was so happy!  I passed, just barely, but still passed Precalculas!
So with one tragedy down time for the other one to begin.  Last Friday I was on my way to work at JCW's.  I walk in to the back room where our assignments are for the day.  I look the list over a couple times and notice my name's not there.  So I go find my boss to see if it was just a mistake or if I wasn't supposed to come in today.  I find him and he says,"Go out and wait for me I need to talk to you."  So I went to sit in one of the booths.  My heart was racing, all I could think about was one word.  Fired.  I sat and waited patiently trying not to let the fear show on my face.  My boss comes out and sits down. 
"Now as you know we have been having allot of employees asking for more hours when there aren't any to give.  Chris and Clay have told me that we need to lay people off.  Taylor, we are going to have to let you go."  My heart sank, me being an easy crier when it came to bad news like this couldn't help but shed a little tear.  He went on to say how I was improving and how I needed to come in and collect one more check on the 26th.  He then asked if I had any questions.  Through the tears I tried to manage a smile and said, " Know anywhere that't hiring?"  He smiled and suggested Subway and other than that he didn't know.  I left with tears overflowing in my eyes. 
So if you know anywhere that is hiring in the Pleasant Grove, Lindon, and or American Fork area, please let me know as soon as possible.  Thanks. 
Everyone's got trials, but not everyone can overcome them.